Writing by Impulse

I felt compelled to write today. Let's not follow any rules, because let's face it, life very rarely follows any rules in the strict sense. There are many more exceptions, many more paths to follow than even the two roads which Robert Frost described so many years ago. But the patterns still remain, so we'll begin there...

My muse and musings over the last 3 weeks have both confused and refocused me so we'll move to another "M"spiration. Today's song for this blog is New World Man by Rush.

He’s not concerned with yesterday
He knows constant change is here today
He’s noble enough to know what’s right
But weak enough not to choose it
He’s wise enough to win the world
But fool enough to lose it —

The New World Man lacks focus. He has convictions that he doesn't always follow. But he's in process...as am I. (The process is over using the ellipsis as I stream thoughts overflowing while my editor winces.)

I know that I was going in an entirely different direction in my last post, and we'll get back there. Honestly, I have been a little off track from the start. But the only thing that is constant, is change. It's time to re-invent who I am again. Time to put the pieces back together and start again, even if it's too late for some things...

I really thought I would have had some notoriety by now. I hesitate to use the word famous, especially since the term has really been watered-down by the plague of social media. As a young man I imagined that I'd be on a TV talk show or I would be interviewed for some magazine piece. I'd plug my new novel or the movie that I'd written the screenplay for based on some of my own life experiences or find a new twist on an existing work that no one else but me saw. I would get to thank all of the wonderful people I have encountered in my life who's words and lessons have stuck with me throughout the years. People would brag about having known me at some point in their lives. I don't know why either of those last things were are important to me, but they are. (Yes, that's a strike-through intentionally placed for effect.)

Yet the New World Man is easily forgettable...but with so much promise. While the song speaks more to building society by taking in the big picture (the Old World Man and the Third World Man) and developing that to the next level, even in making some of the same mistakes, I take the more mundane, and literal approach to the individual struggling within to create something better. (All while producing the ugliest punctuated run-on sentence.)

So, I say I've been getting refocused (although it's not really materializing here) and part of that has been figuring out what to give up and what to focus on. I'm still not there. But I think there will always be little pieces of who I am, who I have been and who I might become next as I continue on my journey...as the Incomplete Writer.